fuck you for leaving

seriously fuck your shit
i finally call you out on leaving and you come back
you come back with just a simple fucking “hey”
you’re just like everyone else
just like the rest
i should hate you
i should loathe you
i shouldn’t give two shits about you
and yet why do i welcome you with open arms?
you could leave me a million times
each time hurting more then the last
and i’d welcome you with open arms every time
why do i do this to myself? 
i don’t understand who i am
or who i am coming to be