January 2011
2 posts
This thing
Has four followers
Some guy who doesn’t go on tumblr anymore
Luna
Loretta
Some guy I used to be friends with and also doesn’t go on tumblr anymore
So if anyone sees this you can go ahead and unfollow. I am planning to start a new personal tumblr that I will actually update. I will give you the link whenever I do so.
I’m really only keeping this one to look back on what I...
September 2010
2 posts
i fucking wish i never met you
i really really do
you’re an asshole
you didn’t care
you just
fuck
i hate everything
July 2010
1 post
fuck you for leaving
seriously fuck your shit i finally call you out on leaving and you come back you come back with just a simple fucking “hey” you’re just like everyone else just like the rest i should hate you i should loathe you i shouldn’t give two shits about you and yet why do i welcome you with open arms? you could leave me a million times each time hurting more then the last and...
June 2010
5 posts
wow
i thought i could trust you i never thought you would go and blabber to everyone the things i told you not once NOT ONCE have i ever told anyone something you told me even if it was just a joke i still don’t appreciate it what if i were serious? what if i were brutally honest and that’s how i truly felt i can’t believe you
on a side note...
I wish I gave someone butterflies I wish I made someone happy
sometimes....you really piss me off
and i hate how you change like that
I'm getting rid of things.
I will probably regret it later. But it’s the only way.
i should really be more productive...seriously
kick out procratination
kick in productivity
so, life, does that sound good?
things would be a lot easier…
May 2010
19 posts
I guess this is really it
I’m okay. I’m okay. I’m okay. Just repeat it. I’m okay.
It’s for the best.
Maybe one day the thought of you will never enter my head again.
Fuck.
I am a sinking ship
Just like the Titanic
Except no one knows I’m drowning
I won’t go down in history
I am nothing
I am water boiling
Evaporating into the air
I will disappear
You can’t stop this from happening
You can’t prevent the inevitable
You can’t save me
I need a break from everything.
Just for the next 20 days
I
Need
To
Stop
So I just woke up a little bit ago
and I felt great..although annoyed that I slept all day I still felt good Then everything just hit rock bottom I feel like shit now and just ugh I hate how my moods are always like this I hate even more how certain things and certain people won’t stay out of your head It really really sucks
Ughhh
I need to stop
No more
None
I can’t do this anymore
numb numb numb
so glad I’m getting my own soon
I just hope it’s the same
random thought
back to work
Ignore that last post
I think my words are crap right now. I am a mess. Trying to fix that.
It isn’t going to well…
Stop me
I see no light at the end of the tunnel
I’m too far in
I can’t get out
Just darkness caved in around me now
It’s eating my soul
I do nothing to stop it
I let it consume me whole
I used to fight
Dig my nails into these walls
Trying to find a way out
Everything is repeating in my head
They won’t shut up
It’s like a song that never ends
It only repeats
On...
I regret
every
fucking
thing
yeah so..
they did read it
they did do what i hoped the did
BUT I FUCKING FELL ASLEEP
….ugh…hate….self…right…now
I have no reason..
Way…I meant way…
fuck I’m so tired but I can’t sleep
Fuck...
I just figured out that you didn’t read it…in fact…you didn’t even get it. And I have no reason of getting it to you now…
I’m off to cry myself to sleep now
-__-
Ugh..
Isn’t it weird how you’re whole mind and body can be screaming to tell someone something but you didn’t. Only because you were too chicken to tell them the truth. You were too afraid. This is my life in a nutshell. -sigh-
I hope you saw it. I hope you read it. I hope you’re going to do it. Because if not I will probably end up feeling like shit and resort to doing...
ugh ugh ugh
why do you do this to me?
why
why
why
Looks like I’m getting another repeat of last night…
I don’t know what bothers me the most. How you don’t understand how I feel or how you say you care but it feels like you don’t.
She sat there..
smoking her last cigarette just before sundown. It’s amazing with all the people there I only managed to see her the entire time. Everyone else didn’t exist. They were in another world that was completely obsolete to me. I was here. In her world. A world that was utterly superior to my own. That was the night it all began. The months that followed were possibly the best moments of my...
kill me
i’m dying
my head
my stomach
i can’t think straight
i can’t think at all
I feel amazing
numb
complete.
I HOPE YOU DIE AND GET RAPED BY DEMONS IN HELL
so I deleted some of my old posts because I am starting fresh and new and things will get better
something that will always bother me
always
April 2010
7 posts
Tonight
We’ll crucify the insincere tonight
We’ll make things right, we’ll feel it all tonight
time for me to suck it up
and stop being a little bitch about this shit
i need to get my shit together
ahahah
i forgot how funny this movie it…it literally cracks me up every time. If I could I would so marry Seth Rogen….he is so hot and funny and just yeah. Anyways…I also don’t think I’m going to that show tonight which really depresses me. I was so looking forward to it…it would have been great for me…oh well..another lonely night watching movies alone here I...
ughhhh
where is Loretta
I’m going to lose my mind
And I’m sick to my stomach right now..
1 tag
I like how my friends IRL follow this
So it’s 8 am. I just woke up. Feeling like a shitty and annoyed P. Diddy. Loretta’s phone is STILL DEAD. I would call Kelsey…but she’s asleep. I don’t think she understands the urgency of my situations. I’m feeling a lot better then I have the past two days….seriously kids…do not do drugs. I have some inspiration to write something today so you may...
Okay so...
this is where all my feelings, thoughts, poems, short stories, long stories, lyrics, whatever the hell I want in the for of words will be. Tumblr gives me the option to make more than one blog so I’m taking advantage of that to get organized. One for cool books / music / photos / things that interest me / etc. which can be found here. People usually don’t like reading about my crap and...