This thing
Has four followers
- Some guy who doesn’t go on tumblr anymore
- Luna
- Loretta
- Some guy I used to be friends with and also doesn’t go on tumblr anymore
So if anyone sees this you can go ahead and unfollow. I am planning to start a new personal tumblr that I will actually update. I will give you the link whenever I do so.
I’m really only keeping this one to look back on what I used to be and see how far I’ve come. To see how much I’ve changed. To see how better off I am now. To see…well you get the picture.
So yeah. Cool.
i fucking wish i never met you
i really really do
you’re an asshole
you didn’t care
you just
fuck
i hate everything
fuck you for leaving
seriously fuck your shit
i finally call you out on leaving and you come back
you come back with just a simple fucking “hey”
you’re just like everyone else
just like the rest
i should hate you
i should loathe you
i shouldn’t give two shits about you
and yet why do i welcome you with open arms?
you could leave me a million times
each time hurting more then the last
and i’d welcome you with open arms every time
why do i do this to myself?
i don’t understand who i am
or who i am coming to be
wow
i thought i could trust you
i never thought you would go and blabber to everyone the things i told you
not once NOT ONCE have i ever told anyone something you told me
even if it was just a joke i still don’t appreciate it
what if i were serious?
what if i were brutally honest and that’s how i truly felt
i can’t believe you
on a side note…
I wish I gave someone butterflies
I wish I made someone happy
sometimes….you really piss me off
and i hate how you change like that
I’m getting rid of things.
I will probably regret it later.
But it’s the only way.
i should really be more productive…seriously
kick out procratination
kick in productivity
so, life, does that sound good?
things would be a lot easier…
I guess this is really it
I’m okay. I’m okay. I’m okay. Just repeat it. I’m okay.
It’s for the best.
Maybe one day the thought of you will never enter my head again.
Fuck.
I am a sinking ship
Just like the Titanic
Except no one knows I’m drowning
I won’t go down in history
I am nothing
I am water boiling
Evaporating into the air
I will disappear
You can’t stop this from happening
You can’t prevent the inevitable
You can’t save me
I need a break from everything.
Just for the next 20 days
I
Need
To
Stop
So I just woke up a little bit ago
and I felt great..although annoyed that I slept all day I still felt good
Then everything just hit rock bottom
I feel like shit now and just ugh
I hate how my moods are always like this
I hate even more how certain things and certain people won’t stay out of your head
It really really sucks
